I want, but I cant … return to anorexic way. How I reconcile raw vegan livestyle with restrict calories? I like eating ‘how much i can’, cos my weight doesnt gain. It sound so stupid, but it is a part of my sick mind. I have a plan. Only raw food. No limit calories, but more fruits and greens, low nuts. More run. Maybe, I will lose weight faster and I will look better for spring. Maybe, my bones will back soon.